Killers

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Killers - book excerpt

Chapter One

He heard me. There’s no way he didn’t hear me. I am so dead.

I duck down behind the van. I can’t even look, so I listen. For anything. The sound of a doorknob turning, floorboards creaking, anything to remind me just how big a mistake I made by coming to this awful place. I picture the man plowing through his doorway, with any of a variety of deadly weapons in his hands, ready to pick off the idiot with delusions of grandeur who thought he could tackle the boogeyman all by himself.

Yeah, like I said, a mistake. Not the first one I’ve ever made, but it just might be my last.

How did I get here, anyway?

Jeez. A girl’s life is at stake, not to mention mine, and I choose now to get introspective?

Maybe I should start at the beginning. Like, the day I discovered I had superpowers.

Don’t get excited. Despite what you’ve read in comic books, it’s really not all it’s cracked up to be. I mean, if I’d been lucky enough to find a glowing meteorite in the woods and it gave me invisibility or super-strength or the ability to shoot lasers out my butthole, that would’ve been cool.

Me? No, my big moment came in the alleyway behind the coffee shop where I work. I touched a piece of what I thought was trash, got a massive migraine, blacked out, and woke up with my face half-in, half-out of a puddle that smelled faintly—okay, not so faintly—of motor oil. Images flashed through my mind like a movie being played on extreme fast-forward, too fast for my pain-addled brain to make any sense of. Memories of a little girl’s kidnapping, confinement, and murder. It wasn’t until later that I even learned her name.

Sarah Blankenship. Ten years old. A fifth-grader at Desert View Middle School. A girl who loved her teachers, hot fudge sundaes, and her pit bull puppy Lucy.

A girl who would never see her family, her friends, or Lucy ever again.

But…wait. That’s not the beginning either, is it? Man, I suck at this.

I peek around the van again, my palms slick with sweat and my heart thundering in my chest. Still no sign of movement.

There was a time, not so long ago, when I was a loser, the poster child for not giving a crap. I was destined for prison. Or an early grave. And if I’d stayed that way, with my head lodged firmly in my ass, that’s how my story would end.

Well, the early grave may still happen. But by God, if this is it for me, it’s going to be for a good reason.

Scrape.

He’s right behind me, isn’t he.

Shit.

Chapter Two

ONE MONTH EARLIER

My stained, tattered duffle bag rests on the bed beside me as I scan the walls of my bedroom. I do my best to keep my face blank and to not stare at the head of the man kneeling at my feet, removing the device that’s been chafing my skin for the past eight months. It’s a tough task since the dude’s comb-over is the most hideous I’ve ever seen. If the few remaining hairs on his head had ever been able to cross the vast distance to all the other ones, they couldn’t now.

He’s taking his sweet time. If it were my job to go from screw-up to screw-up, releasing them from electronic prison, I’d probably want to stretch the minutes out too. He didn’t bother introducing himself as he entered my bedroom…for the record, without knocking. Good thing I was already dressed.

With an electronic boop, the ankle monitor shuts itself off. Mr. Comboverski tosses the device into an open satchel, stands, shoots me a “have a nice life” glance, and departs.

I resume staring at the walls of my room, the one I’ve shared with a kid named Kyle Hagan since my arrival at the Asterly Halfway House. My half of the room is a stark contrast with his. While his walls are plastered with posters of WWE stars like Jinder Mahal and Kevin Owens, I opted for a more conservative approach. Which is to say, completely empty.

I lock eyes with Kyle as he shuffles back into the room, depositing himself on his bed. Kid’s fifteen, short, with thick, nerdy-looking glasses and scruffy black hair. I sense a pang of sadness in his expression, and I well up a little inside. Eye contact is not his thing, so I take it seriously when it happens between us. We’ve not had many conversations since becoming roomies, but those we’ve had have been pleasant enough. My life might be crap, but it’s Minas Tirith—complete with blaring trumpets and gleaming ivory spires—compared to his. Whatever happens from here on out, I hope he finds an outlet for what must be a crap-ton of rage, one that doesn’t involve an ankle bracelet.

“Happy birthday,” he says with a thing that’s as close to a smile as his face is capable of making.

“Thanks, man.” I take a moment to wonder if I’ll ever see him again. Probably not.

I think I’ll actually miss him. God knows there were much worse roommates I could’ve had. Never once did he mouth off to me, or curse me out, or get in my face about my snoring. Because, yeah, I have a snore that could set off seismographs, or so I’ve been told.

“Any idea where you’re going?” he asks.

I give a noncommittal shrug. “Sheila told me she had a full morning planned. I’m just waiting for her to get here.”

He jerks his head at the room’s only window. “You mean your social worker? She just pulled up. Unless you know someone else who drives a green Spark.”

Curious, I rise to my feet and move over to the window. There, parked on the curb right behind Carl’s weather-beaten Buick, is a snug little two-door the same color as ripe jalapenos. In front of the car stands its owner, pretty much the only person on the planet who gives a shit about me.

She’s wearing her usual silk, floral print blouse, a light brown skirt, and white sneakers. From this distance, she can’t possibly see me through the filthy screen covering the pane, but I’m sure the smile she shoots up at my window is indeed meant for me.

“Your ride’s here,” says a gruff voice from behind me.

I turn to see the now former master of my universe filling the threshold to my now former bedroom. A smile plays over the face of Carl Benz, the administrative gorilla who runs Asterly House, which is a rarity on par with a Cubs’ World Series victory. In lieu of Netflix, unsupervised Internet access, and dirty magazines, needling Carl over his career choice has been my one major source of entertainment for the last eight months. My favorite dig is reminding him that he shares a name with a brand of car he’ll never ever be able to afford, usually by referencing his nonexistent girlfriend, who I’ve named—

“Is it Mercedes? She’s treating me to a spa day. Because, you know, eighteen.” I flash him an evil grin. Kyle chuckles under his breath, earning a stern frown from Carl.

Carl meets my eyes again, and he bares his coffee-stained teeth at me. “Dream on, asshole. It may be your birthday, but I’m the one getting the present…namely, your eternal absence.” His beer gut vibrates as he suppresses a chortle. “It fills my heart with joy to know that the next time you strike out with the law, you’ll be sent somewhere more appropriate.” He eyes me up and down, his smile morphing into a self-satisfied leer. “Somewhere, there’s an itchy orange jumpsuit just waiting for you to come along and fill it. The day you put it on, I hope you think of me.”

I notch an eyebrow. “Stop it, Carl, I’m getting misty-eyed.”

His resolve cracks. “Grab your shit and get outta here. I gotta get this space cleaned up and ready for the next loser.”

An audible sigh from Kyle fills the room. I see him sitting there, hands on knees and contemplating the threadbare throw rug someone paid five bucks for at Goodwill. It occurs to me that the kid’s next roommate may not be as compatible. Knowing Carl, he’ll stick Kyle with some bulked-up Neanderthal who likes to torture small, furry animals.

With a deep exhale, I grab my duffle bag and sling the arm-strap over my shoulder. Time to blow this shithole. But first…

I amble over to Kyle, hand extended. “Take care, man. Don’t let this place get to you. Don’t let anyone get to you.”

He looks up, a mixture of resignation and dread on his face. He limply takes my hand in his, letting me shake it for him. “See ya, Bax.”

I don’t bother saying goodbye to any of the other residents on my way to the front door. A couple of boys in the TV room shoot me a “smell ya later” look, but that’s about as cordial as it gets in this place. I let the screen door slam behind me and don’t even look back as I descend the steps for the last time.

***

“So, where we headed first?” My eyes are glued to the side-view mirror as Sheila hangs a left at the intersection. Asterly House disappears from sight. I heave a sigh of relief.

“Sadly, your first day as an adult is going to involve a lot of adult stuff. I’ll do my best to get you through that quickly, as you have a lot of things to celebrate.” A sly smile curls the corners of her mouth. “Did you have anything specific in mind in that regard?”

I use my thumb to wipe away the thin layer of dust covering the car’s tiny digital clock. “Let’s see…it’s just past ten a.m. We have nine hours before I can get that lap dance I know you’re dying to surprise me with. After that, I’m partying till I puke. We’d better stop by a CVS so I can pick up a pack of Trojans.” I give her a playful wink. “You know, just in case I get—”

Sheila slams on the brakes, causing me to pitch forward and bonk my head on the dashboard. I yelp in pain. “Seatbelt, smartass,” she says without a trace of apology.

I straighten up, slapping my hand over my aching forehead. “You did that on purpose.”

Her eyebrows raise, disappearing into her grayish-brown bangs. “Who, me?”

Our eyes meet for a few moments, and I let out a guffaw. She faces forward and proceeds through the now green light.

“I guess we’ll have to find a cheap motel for me to stay at until I figure the rest of it out,” I muse, brushing a lock of unkempt brown hair out of my eyes. “Hopefully, one next to a barber shop.”

She shoots me a reassuring smile. “If today goes as planned, a motel won’t be necessary.”

“‘As planned?’”

“You do remember when the court appointed me your guardian ad litem, right?”

I stare blankly. “Of…course I do.”

Sheila lets out a huff. “Boiled down, it means that I act as your representative—in financial matters, for example—until you’re able to look after yourself.”

“You mean the money Dad left me…that’s real?”

“It is.”

“Like, for real, real?”

“Yup.”

I haven’t been paying attention to where we’re going, so it’s only when we enter the parking lot of a bank that I become aware of my surroundings. The bald eagle logo grimaces down at me from the sign above the entrance as she pulls the Spark into an empty space.

She meets my gaze. “Before you go off half-cocked, promise me you’ll give me the day to convince you that you can do much better than a cheap motel.”

I barely hear her over the cha-ching! noises inside my head, but I somehow manage an “I promise” as she kills the engine.

“Good.” With a smirk, she adds, “Lunch will be on you.”

“It will?” I mock-gasp.

“Bax, in an hour you’re gonna have more money at your disposal than I make in a year. After everything I have set up for you today, a nice lunch is the least you can do.”

I brighten. “Holy shit, there really is a lap dance?”

“Course there is.” She grins evilly. “Though I warn you, I’m a little out of practice.”

All the blood in my body goes straight to my face.

She rolls her eyes. “Oh, for God’s…let’s go already.” She steps out, slamming the door shut.

Through the windshield, I shoot her a hairy eyeball. “What, you think I’m gonna have an appetite now after picturing that?”

After swallowing my mild disgust and exiting the Spark, I make a show of brushing dust particles from my plain white tee and jeans and find myself regretting my decision to not wear my jacket. Early October in Phoenix is usually quite temperate, but today there’s an uncomfortable chill in the air. It seems to have gotten colder since I left Asterly.

We head inside the bank, where a white-haired guy in a blazer and tie sits me down on the other side of his desk and shows me a mountain of paperwork. Oh, joy.

My brain checks out as I fast-forward through ninety long minutes of signing my name to a gazillion documents, which is even more tedious than it sounds.

Even so, I leave the bank with an actual smile on my face, now the proud owner of my very own checking and savings accounts. I am officially fifty thousand dollars richer, with similar deposits to be made on my birthday for each of the next nine years. In my head, I’m already mulling over dozens of ways to spend the cash, each more outlandish than the last.

The sound of Sheila slamming the car door brings me crashing back to reality. Fifty grand is a lot of money. It’s more money than most eighteen-year-olds have, but it’s not going to buy me a Lambo, a luxury yacht, or even a house that doesn’t have a “Condemned” sign attached to it.

In the passenger seat, I slip the generic ATM card and five twenty-dollar bills into my worn faux-leather wallet and eye Sheila as we head for the next stop on her itinerary. I decide to preserve the mystery and let it happen. I’m probably still on a high from having actual cash money in my pocket again.

Five minutes after we leave the bank, Sheila turns the car onto Grand Avenue, heading northwest. “There, that wasn’t too painful, was it?” she asks.

“Not at all,” I reply. “I kept waiting for Mom to come charging through the door, screaming her head off that I didn’t deserve a penny.” I snort. “Wonder if she even knows today’s my birthday.”

“Probably slipped her mind between trips to the liquor store.”

“Yeah.”

“I don’t suppose you’ve spoken to her lately.”

I feel my stomach clench, and for once it’s not from hunger. Why’d I have to go and bring up Mom? “Nope. Haven’t talked to her in over a year. Wouldn’t even know how to reach her if I wanted to. Last I heard, she was shacked up with some guy in Prescott Valley.”

“Dwayne. They’re still together, as far as I know. But enough about her. Let’s talk about you.”

Here we go. I brace myself for the impending lecture.

“This isn’t going to be a lecture, don’t worry,” she says drolly.

I swear this woman is telepathic.

“I won’t sugarcoat it, Bax, you’ve had a tough last few years—"

“It’s been a shit sandwich.”

“But thanks to what your father left you, you have something most boys in your position don’t have—a real chance to turn your life around.”

“Whatev.”

“Bax…”

She leans forward, and my eyes return to her concerned face. She means well, and deep down, I appreciate that more than I show it. Over the last two years, I’ve given her every excuse to write me off as a loser, to cut me loose the same day the system did, but she’s stuck by me through thick and thicker. Sheila Dunbar truly puts the “social” in social worker.

I decide to change the subject. “Don’t you have other kids to bring back from the Dark Side?”

She flinches a little. “Course I do.”

“Do you chauffeur all of them around on their birthday?”

I glance at Sheila in time to see a tiny smile disappear from her face. “Only the special ones,” she says.

I realize she’s dressing it up, so I let her. Most delinquents—or at least the ones I’ve been forced to cohabitate with—carry an unhealthy amount of rage. It could be against their parents, their ex-girlfriends, or just the almighty system in general. Many of them see Sheila as the face of that system and use her to vent their spleen on. When they finally cross that legal line from childhood to adulthood, I imagine many of them give her whatever equivalent of “eff you” strikes their fancy and never look back. Which is totally unfair. Sheila’s maybe the one person in their lives who truly cares. She doesn’t coddle them, but she doesn’t patronize them either. It’s one of the things I admire about her…I sure as shit couldn’t do what she does.

“What makes me so special?” I hide my grin by facing the window.

“You’re a good kid, Bax,” she says in that voice that almost makes me believe it, “and you’re a lot smarter than you give yourself credit for. I think you can truly make something of your life if you set your mind to it.”

“Uh, thanks.” I tug at a loose thread on my T-shirt.

Sheila lets the subject drop, fiddling with her cell phone as we slow down to drive through a construction zone. I don’t own a phone, so I pass the time by wondering just what the hell I am going to do next.

What does a kid my age with above-average intelligence, no goals beyond the next party, and no direction in life do after inheriting a truckload of money? Well, “go nuts” is probably the short answer to that question. I could blow it all in no time on fancy clothes and bling, not to mention a gas-guzzling luxury car that I’d have to sell once the money ran out.

Or I could do what so-called “responsible” people are supposed to do—get an apartment, a job, and a nice TV with a gaming system so I don’t die of boredom. Yeah, I’ll go with that for now.

Sheila looks up at me, and again I feel her telepathic fingers crawling through my mind. It’d be impressive if it weren’t so scary.

I never set out to be a delinquent. Somewhere along the line, though, that’s what I became.

Is that what I still am? Can I ever be anything else?

Book Details

AUTHOR NAME: Patrick Hodges

BOOK TITLE: Killers (The Bax Mysteries Book 1

GENRE: Crime & Mystery

PAGE COUNT: 342

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